Frozen

The movie Frozen is the perfect description of how people with insecurities and depressions are.

I don't know how to explain, but it just is.

It's amazing how the movie elicits everything and how much love can change people. 

My dear

The saddest way to fall out of love is to suddenly wake up the next morning, and realise that you don't feel the same way as you did the day before.

Two lovers starts to feel distant and little did they know, they were parting from each other, emotionally. 

Both are not capable of being in each other's company.

All of a sudden, the feeling that was once so true, turned out to be a lie.

What happened, dear Princess?

Just suckish

It sucks:

When you get to know someone close enough, but never realised you've actually fallen for him and only realised when he said he already liked some other girl.

Even worse:

When both of you fall for each other, but you just fail to tell the other person because you thought of waiting for the right moment and end up not saying anything.

The worst:

Both of you just ponder upon the past and wish that you've at least done something to be in each other's lives because now it's just seeing shadows of something that could've happened.

And it sucks.

How do you deal with someone who says no to all that you like?

How can you feel happy when the things you like are being pushed aside and not shared? Isn't love all about sharing?

Familiarity

Human likes the feeling of familiarity. They like to be sure of things. I guess that's why we find ourselves reminiscing the past because the feelings were true and you know that you've felt it before. 

It's not actually a good thing, but sometimes it's just hard to stop yourself. You just need to be sure that such feelings exist - such memories can be created. And then you just find yourself digging up old stuffs, flashing through all the good times in the past. 

Sometimes it's not because the present sucks. It's just the warm feeling we get from the past feelings keep us sane and hoping. The present just seems so confusing, and the only place to turn to is somewhere we know we'll never get lost - the past, of course.

Drowning yourself in the familiar faces can be both intriguing and bitter. Words never said could keep on hunting you, yet smiles on people's faces could light up your own. :)

I hate how much I rely on the past to feel familiar. I'm constantly searching for a place where I feel safe and warm. And I chose the past, and believe me, it's the biggest mistake yet. I just hope I find a better place to turn to later. The past is just not the place I wanna be anymore. 

A strong heart

I know I've mentioned about how much I hate sleeping late, but I just can't help it. I hate sleeping late, but lately I couldn't get myself to sleep early.

Why am I doing this to myself?

What has happened to me? I miss my old self.

I guess everyone will change, and lose themselves in the middle of the way, and hate the fact that they changed. And wish that they were how they were before. But there's nothing we can get from looking back on the person we used to be.

Haih.

I have such a strong heart, carrying all these nonsense burden.

I have a strong mind, keeping me sane.

Maybe I should be thankful for that.

Not enough

I just want to believe I'm good enough.

In everything I do, say or even the way I present myself. I wanna know that I'm enough.

How do I know when to stop trying?

Trying is sickening.

I try to be better but I'm barely moving.

I see people, and I see they impress you.

How do I impress you?

How do I leave a mark in your heart, in your mind?

How do I make you not fall for someone else?

How do I win?

When do I have to stop trying? 

What should I do to make you notice me?

Sometimes I give up on myself. 

Regardless of what you say, I give up.

I just know that I'm never gonna be enough.