IWTFY

"Eventually, I started needing to recreate the sadness and longing within myself that had first inspired me to write many of the entries, so I could write from that place again. It’s like being addicted to painkillers, so to justify to the doctor why you need them, you start hurting yourself to prove your point. I started spending my time tearing open old wounds just so I could write about what the blood looked like when it came out."

- IWTFY

cheap love

You ask for people to care for you, but have you ever cared for them?

Life is a simple thing.

'You get back what you've given.'

The more you give, the more you get back. If you're so cheap, even for love, how do you expect to live in wealth? If you're okay with being poor, then be it. 

The end of the semester

I wonder what changed me. I read back all my blog posts and I realized how much I love writing back then. Even tho most of the things I write are just crap, but I had passion. *I think it's illegal to even call it passion* But yeah. That's my point. Compared to the things I've written in the past few months, I like me in the past better. At least I showed some interest in the things I like. Now I'm just like a soulless person, with nothing to look up to. -,- I still do like writing. I just lost the real excitement. haih. I wonder what took away that.

Anyways, it's that moment again. The end of the semester. -,- I hate the end of the semester; the lecturers are still giving assignments and hoping that we do good in it. I have 7 case studies this semester. SEVEN! That's like seven times the burden. Questionnaires, interviews, discussions. *scream* It's eating my brain. Not one is done yet. -,- There are 2 that are still not moving. Nothing done! And there's like 3 weeks left of the semester. *scream* This is all because UTM is a research-based university. So, lecturers are needed to include case studies in all of the subjects. THANK YOU VERY MUCH!

The problem is that some of the subjects aren't even core subjects. I don't even get the purpose of doing the research. blerrgghhh~

Partner

I pray to God everyday, so that I'd not only end up with someone I love,

but also with someone who can guide me to better,

who can stand by my side,

and tell me that I'm just a good person for him as how is for me;

that I too, help him to become a better person,

that he needs me by his side to support and cheer on him thru all his life

and that I'm the one he loves.

And everyday I'm thankful to Allah for granting me my prayer.

And I can't wait for the day he becomes my Imam.
Because then only I know, I have all that I want.

Amiiin.

My efforts, do you see it?

I just hate how people don't even try to impress you, but you get impressed.

I hate how people are not even trying, but you get it.

What about me?

What about the things I do?

My hope for you

Guide me to be a better person.

Just sometimes

You know that feeling, where you just gots to know?

Yeah, I just gots to know.

Are all those things you say for me?

Are all those regrets for me?

Was it me all along?

I know, I have to let it go.

But it's haunting me.

In the name of Allah

Okay. So today I'm feeling more lively than yesterday. It's a Sunday, but I'm not gonna let the fact that tomorrow is Monday ruin my mood for today!

Hopefully it's a good Sunday for me and for everyone! :)

I'm gonna try and finish my 3000 words essay on Content-based approach.

Ahah. I'm only at my 600th word. -,-

Still a long way to go!

But hopefully I can get this finish by Tuesday. I need to check it with PM Khairi so that I can correct what ever that needs correction before submitting it on Friday.

So yeah. In the name of Allah, hopefully today will be better for me. :)

Have a great day fellas. 

XOXO

My eye liner

I love it when people notice my little efforts.

Like when I put on my eye liner.

:)

Thank you.

I appreciate it.

It makes me feel so much better.

It makes my day.

You're someone I wanna keep forever, be with forever

And now it's clear as this promise

That we're making two reflections into one

Cause it's like you're my mirror

My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

You little thing

You don't beg for sympathy when the problem comes from yourself, dude.

You don't go blaming other people for not understanding you because you simple can't say no to other people's request.

That's just bullshit.

You're the problem.

Not me.

Not anyone else.

Learn to say no.

I'm not sorry for anything I said because I know what I said was not wrong.

From my heart

I do question your existence in my life.

Honestly, I see no significance of you being here.

I wish, oh how I wish to be in a world without your existence.

Sincerely,

Annoyed me.

If I could, I would love to punch you in the face.

Reading Andy's hatelist got me thinking about mine.

-,-

Blergh.

So much hatred.

Let's try to not go there again.

There's so many things to hate right now.
So little love in this little world of mine.
Or maybe it's just that there are so many pain in the ass.
Ah, killing them would definitely solve my problem.

Our name is our virtue

Ahah.

Finally revealing your true self.

Not totally surprised, but not really what I expected.

Haha.

You're so funny.

Now everything makes sense.