Because you said you'd be there for me

I made a choice and now I'm hoping it is the right one.

Marriage?

The best thing about being single or unmarried is not having to think about other people.

Especially in making decisions. 

To share is one thing, to discuss, is another. 

Cause baby you're not a firework

Ah, uttering such words.

Not surprised that it came from you.

I'm just wondering if you'll ever see yourself.

Sometimes I wonder if you've ever reflected yourself.

Saturdays at my place

I'm starting to not like Saturdays.

Saturdays used to be much more fun than this.

And much more less lonely than this.

But at least it's a Saturday.

Weekends are always the best.

Haih. I should be going out more.

Being true to myself

Ah, I just looove how I make myself get into trouble.

-,-

Just one moment. 

One single second I put aside my insecurities, and let people in, it just eats me up the next second.

Darn it.

I should've trusted myself more.

Hate is a strong word

To say to someone who hates you 'I love you' is just pure painful.

But I can't deny my feelings.

I love you.

But I'm also torn.

I'm 21 people~

*fireworks*

*confetti*

*boomboomboom*

21 already.

Alhamdulillah.

Let's pray for a better self, a better mind.

Pray for a better muslimah.

happy me

I want socks. Lotsa lotsa pretty socks.

Socks makes me happy.

Commitment

I don't know how to explain my feelings upon seeing this. 

Try and be the understanding one, Young Lady

When your partner goes out with his friends, let him have fun.

 From evening till morning the next day.

Hey, YOLO.

The next day, he acts like it's nothing.

Hey, come on, try and understand, Young Lady.

"He doesn't do it always. It's just once every occasion."

It's not like you were doing anything anyway.

You were alone.

Sleeping.

Waiting.

And hoping.

What is there to understand?

*sigh*

You're just messed up, Young Lady.

You think too much.

Let it go, let it go, let it go.

Be a better person.

Get up and stop thinking about other people.

This made me cry. T.T 

"My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart."

I play games on my phone

I suppose everyone claims they have mixed up souls.

Not being able to define what they really feel or what they want.

Or the fact that they're always not understood by other people.

But then some of them found a way to cope with the situation.

Find love, find peace.

And some just never found their way back 'home'.

They just never learn the way to live

And me?

I just play games on my phone.

Surround yourself with people who will lift you higher because friends are family you choose yourself

This is the family I chose.

And I wouldn't have chosen any other. :)

Young Lady

Oh, you make me sick.

I wish you knew how many times you would've fell if it weren't for all the people catching you along the way.

Being with you

Suddenly everything just seems so wrong.

Everything you do makes me sad.

Every name you mention makes me feel like I'm gonna lose you.

Every single time you say someone talked to you I feel like I have no chance. 

Crowds don't make me happy, alone I don't feel right

I know, most people claim to feel the same way. But why? I hate myself for being in such way.

I want to be a crowd. I want to feel competent.

I'm your present. Please, let go of your past.

Because right now, I need you to be here. Not there.