Yay. It's a wrap.

Now this all makes sense. I'm not the messed up one. You're the one messing up with my life. I have to be strong and leave all of this. I don't need one to destroy my life. I don't get why I'm trying too hard to keep something that is not at all making me happy, or even trying to. 

God, I've been stupid all this while.

You

You can be with someone for years and years and still not know them.

And there are more times when you take them for granted rather than really appreciating their existence in your life. 

It's confusing, really.

I've learnt that you don't need a lot of people close to you. It's fun to have different companions every now and then, but I know now that I need just a few to make my whole world. 

I'll keep losing people through my whole life, but I know for one, that the important ones can never go far from me. 

We all are hard on ourselves sometimes.

And there are times when we feel like killing ourselves because we just can't go on facing failures and criticisms of who we are.

Too fat, too short, not smart enough, not cool enough, too slow.

Craps.

Why do we have to take the craps?

You know what?

I'm very sure that I am better than you. Not to boast myself or make myself be more of a bitch than you.

But I can ensure you that all your trash talk and your judgments won't bring me down because I know what I'm capable of. You may portray yourself as being so cool and confident, but you're not.

You're just that one person who talks behind others to make yourself feel better about yourself. And I won't be one of those people that you can bring down easily by showing how good you are. Because no matter what, I'll always be better than you.

rantings

This is actually weird you know. I'm a blogger and I've been blogging for all I remember. Six, seven years? How many times have I changed my URL? How many times have I deleted my blogs? Countless I tell you. This is actually a sad moment for me. I can't blog anymore. 

All of a sudden, my brain and my heart won't work together anymore. And the words of the world are just not enough for me to express the things on my mind. Too many things going too fast. Can't capture the moments at all. It's like, rushing all at once and all I can do is sigh and look at it pass. It's sad, really.

I am constantly lost. I'm always telling that aren't I?

But I can't get people to understand my situation. I blame my lack of talent in writing and expressing. Then again, maybe my situation is just nothing. It's just me over thinking again. 

I wanna be able to write again. To share all the things in my life without having to think whether or  not people will read, or what they're thinking whilst reading.

I changed, and the hardest part about changing is to change back.

I almost do

What has been a part of you, will always be a part of you.

No Strings Attached

Nothing more to do. 

Serves me right and so now I'm watching No Strings Attached.

I need ice-cream and chocolate, please.

verge

“Sometimes I’m terrified of my heart
Of its constant hunger for whatever it is it wants
The way it stops and starts”

I still can't figure out how to control myself.

I'm at the verge of losing myself.

October

Literally how I feel right now.