Ah, totally torn apart. I hate this feeling. I'm not entirely sure I'm okay now, but I'm trying to live with it. Leaving a place that has given me not only memories, but peace, is gonna be so hard. *sigh* Although, in some way, I can't wait to be back and meet the people that I've missed so much! I can't deny that a part of me also can't wait to start the semester because it's just how I've lived my life. I've busied myself with assignments and hanging out with my friends.
I'd admit that I'm a homey kinda person. I feel so much safer and so much better just staying at home rather than have my ass out and about. Although, sometimes I do envy the times when my friends hangout and I'm there, at home, doing obviously nothing. -,- But I don't know why I won't let myself join them. I'm just such a creep. I like small companions and small groups of people where I feel familiar and safe. I guess I'm just a wuss. Anyways, besides all that, I do love to hangout with my friends. I'm just not a big crowd person (?)
I hate changes. And this holiday definitely changed so much of my daily life. Having to go back to Malaysia, with all the classes and assignments, and activities, ergh. I can't even have the thought of facing it. It's pretty sad.
Anywhores, you'll hear from me later, in Malaysia, hopefully.
Xoxo, Meia Ameruddin.
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