Too full of yourself

I don't know which is the fake one, which is the real one. 

But I spose you were always a bitch.

It's just that now, you don't mind showing it.

Cuz you're just too full of yourself.

I feel sorry for you hunny pie. So sorry.

But don't worry.

Bitches like you always die of desperation anyway.

Oh, don't take me wrong.

Not that I'm praying for you to die. Oh no. I'm not that cruel now, am I?

What I mean is that bitches like you will find a way to destroy yourself in the end. 

I'll just be praying the best for you.

Keep doing what you're doing and you'll be left all alone, hun.

Xoxo, Meia Ameruddin

IMY

Oh, the weight of missing someone. 

Can someone just get it off me?

Wordless September

September is going really fast. And I don't have any words to explain how it is. 

Emotions

So, serves me right.

September

September. My God, time flies. I have so many things on my mind, but I'll find some time to actually write about it. Right now, I'm struggling with hormones!

Obligation

I hate how social media nowadays are making it seem like it is an obligation for a person to have a connection to another person. I mean, if you decide to follow a person, you can't expect the person to do the same for you. So you want to have a connection to that person, do so. That other person may not feel the same way. 

I have my rights to deny that 'obligation'. It's stupid and just plain stupid. I can follow whomever I want, accept whatever requests, and you don't have a damn say in it. And you, you have your rights too. Don't be fooled by how the community works its way. You don't need other people to define you.

Xoxo, Meia Ameruddin

Just another torn apart post

Ah, totally torn apart. I hate this feeling. I'm not entirely sure I'm okay now, but I'm trying to live with it. Leaving a place that has given me not only memories, but peace, is gonna be so hard. *sigh* Although, in some way, I can't wait to be back and meet the people that I've missed so much! I can't deny that a part of me also can't wait to start the semester because it's just how I've lived my life. I've busied myself with assignments and hanging out with my friends.

I'd admit that I'm a homey kinda person. I feel so much safer and so much better just staying at home rather than have my ass out and about. Although, sometimes I do envy the times when my friends hangout and I'm there, at home, doing obviously nothing. -,- But I don't know why I won't let myself join them. I'm just such a creep. I like small companions and small groups of people where I feel familiar and safe. I guess I'm just a wuss. Anyways, besides all that, I do love to hangout with my friends. I'm just not a big crowd person (?) 

I hate changes. And this holiday definitely changed so much of my daily life. Having to go back to Malaysia, with all the classes and assignments, and activities, ergh. I can't even have the thought of facing it. It's pretty sad. 

Anywhores, you'll hear from me later, in Malaysia, hopefully.

Xoxo, Meia Ameruddin.