Sometimes, all you need is a break. A long one.

Maybe one day we'll come across each other again, and maybe then, we'll make it thru. 

Diverging does not always mean separating.

It's just different path we both choose to take.

Maybe some day in the future, we'll be on the same one again. 

10:30

It's only ten thirty, yet I'm already done with Linguistics. This is not good news. It's not that I give up or something. I just don't know what else to read. I can't digest anything any more. I'm just praying for the best for tomorrow's paper. Hopefully my effort is enough. Tomorrow gotta wake up early and do some brain refreshment. At times like this I wish I have an eidetic memory like Sheldon. Hmm, life would be good. 

Coincidence or just subconscious reflex?

Rain.

Rain.

Rain.

:)

Desperation

My oh my. I'm so tired with the finals. Come on! Other people have like, 4-5 papers. I have 8 papers! And this semester just sucks. Everything is just everywhere. Even the lecturers haven't given us our carry marks. I'm so stressed right now. I don't want to fail myself this semester. I have to get good grades. I have to be good in my studies. This is the only thing I know I'm good at, but it's so hard this semester. I just wanna be good. I can't give up just yet. Not yet. Oh, god. Pray for me people. For strength to be better. 

I try not think about it

You know, having someone forgetting you sure is painful. But having someone ignoring you while you're right in front of him is just heart-breaking. Crushes my heart to pieces to see all that we've been thru just, means nothing right now. 

Well, we all have choices. And this was ours. 

kilograms of fat

I went to gym today after a week of hibernating. 

OMG!

-,-

I couldn't catch my breath. Just a week I didn't go jogging, swimming or cycling, and I was like having an asthma attack. *deep breaths* I'm so frustrated. I tried losing weight since last month, but I only lost a kilo. -,- It makes me feel so sad. I'm so fat. :(

I currently weigh 53.4 kg. My BMI is 21. I am aiming for 48 kg with a BMI of 19. I know, it is still a looong way to go. Haih. But I'm gonna do it the right way - watch my diet and try burning the fats. I should be consuming less than my daily calorie consumption, that is 1280 cal. But, sadly, I either consume more than that, or just a little less than that, 100 cal less. -,- I can't stop eating. Food are so good. :( I guess that's why I just need to push myself a little bit more on burning the extra calories to maintain my current weight and lose a little bit. 

But I spose it's okay. It's not that I don't like how I am right now, I just feel like I can lose more. So much more. I'm targeting to weigh 50 kg after Ramadan. And gain one or two kilos back in Raya. -,- HAHA! I gots to face the truth! So, yeah. If I can't lose more than that, I'll just have accept the fat I have. *sigh*

Friendship

:)

I know that we both are heck so busy.

I haven't heard your voice, since like for eveeerrr~

HAHA.

Maybe it's been a week or so.

But I know that you're always there. Always.

I hope to see you soon, OH.

:)