Too early?

Have you ever feel like you're bound to feel that feeling because you're in a situation where, if you don't feel like that, it just doesn't make sense? *ah, I'm not making sense now. -,-

It's not being forced to have a feeling, but it's more like a surrounding kinda thing.

Like, when you have a partner, you're bound to have the feeling of wanting to get married, right? What if you don't really wanna get married? It's gonna be like so weird, right? Why be in a relationship if you don't wanna get married? 

For me, that's not really the question. I mean, sure, when you get into a serious relationship you will have the feeling of wanting to be together and grow old and have grandchildren or whatever, but it doesn't always mean you want to get married, right? aaaaaa~ 

There's a fine line that differentiates between wanting and desiring. 

I'm not sure I wanna get married. I have the one I'm with and I'm really happy. But did I find him a bit too early? It's not like we're rushing things. Hell no. You guys must be thinking like, then why am I fussing about this? Well, I'm just not sure how to feel. I'm not sure how long a relationship can last. I'm not sure of myself. I'm not sure of how I can commit to someone, to something. I still don't believe in marriage.

I have a desire to be with the one I love, but I can't imagine commitments. I'm stuck between responsibilities and desires. I'm stuck between my needs and the needs of other things. ah, 2013 is almost near and this is what i worry about? -,- shessh Meia.