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i fell in love immediately the first time i heard it in the movie 'Cinta'. it's such a beautiful song. sang greatfully by Anuar. not many are a fan of him, but i sure am a big fan of Anuar Zain. the lyrics of the song is beautiful and the melody is just perfect. i suppose Anuar's voice just made it better. made it more meaningful. i'm currently putting this song on replay while playing Tetris. :p at times, i cry listening to it. it has such deep meaning. i can't explain. and being put together with the movie, just tears everywhere. there's not once that i didn't cry watching Cinta. :'(

I, for sure, have never lost someone i love that's so important to me. never. but somehow this song just got to me. i could relate to the song. it's those chills you get. the ones that makes your heart shatters. it's like losing someone. even though i don't know how it feels, but this song makes me feel it. the piano in the beginning has already set the mood. even the piano says something!

still living under the shadow of the one you love is the most tiring thing i suppose. knowing that they left you to live by yourself, not anymore having them next to you, the feeling of lost. the feeling of wanting it like how it used to be. the feeling of wanting their presence. whether it's because of death or because they found someone better, it's still the most miserable thing to be felt. the feeling of lost. it's like a deep hole that can never be covered. a deep wound that would never recover. losing the person you love most.

i can't imagine but surely i can feel it. the absence. worst case, they actually left you because they found someone better. what is there left for you to believe in? what is there left for you to hold on to?

"Tercari-cari bayanganmu"